Oh dear. I went to bed sometime before eleven yesterday and I thought I'd get a little more sleep and maybe wake up earlier... at least I think it was before eleven. Everything dealing with time that happened last night has collapsed in on itself and it's become a huge puddle of thought. Well, anyway, I got into bed and I started thinking, which has always been an indicator to me that I'm not going to get to sleep very quickly.

Someone was the general focus of my thoughts, yet again, and I sat there contemplating things until about three in the morning. Being the senselessly emotional person that I am, I had a lot of crying and poetry-writing in the midst of thinking. If I did realize one worth-while thing, though, it was this: someone knows a lot more of what I've tried to hide, and have hidden sucessfully, from most of my family members and she hasn't abandoned me as I would expect most people would. I guess I can settle with a good, non-judgemental friend... for now anyway.

I'm surprised that I don't tell myself to stop liking her... I mean, it's not like she's ever going to return any of my feelings, and it's not that I don't mind that, it's just... I don't know. I guess I have this to think about now... But, wool-headed lummox or not, I'm going to keep trying.

Later, DS
~ How do you tell what a deserted area looks like?

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i tell ya bout copying/pasting the same entry from your xanga?! i wanna see some variety here!
» (67.169.65.34) on 2004-06-13 02:01:07

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Cut me some slack, Em. There isn't anything to talk about. I don't have a big enough brain to keep thinking of things to write... I'll try to stretch it for a few days.
» desertsnowstorm on 2004-06-13 02:23:40

Bleh...
I understand you brother...Both of us have some things to sort out.
» DarkDragonKnight on 2004-06-13 03:14:10

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